2am

Belly rumbled, legs intercepted each other, body moved in accordance
with the inner mind while I fought back to resist the succumb from
the stunning succubus, bed wet with milky ways leading to an unfounded
galaxy....ewwww ..they call it sperm and wet dream to be
exact.........a level for all ages
What an unconscious abortion....An ardent naive catholic personnel
would conclude ...no offense intended
I struggled to resist the temptation ....having the catholic knowledge
that should I give in.....hell befalleth me ........wondering
spacelessly lost in my daily world of factual fantasy . Known as
dream....am left with ten seconds to make a choice without considering
economics ..........I stared intensely at the lustrous physique of
the succubus ........I felt a jack down there ......what a chain
reaction .........whatever happened next I do not recollect but
cherish and long for tomorrow's night.
Four hours later, a scene from yesternite flashes through my grey
matter....the brain ..........suddenly I'm sinking in Guilt....cursing
out .....how many times will I disregard the Catholics
teaching .........what an earthly devil I have become . I wondered how
the reverend fathers coped..........they weren't born special I
suppose........I let that question pass....to avoid the term blasphemy
like Paulo freirre am yet to be a liberated catholic ..........I
learned without curiosity and innovation, absorbing without analyzing
whatever I was taught.
Four days later like the faithful Buddhist and saints ..... I let the
nightly process pass .....incurring inner blames from the subject
inside everyone of us.........my faithfulness today doesn't guaranty
tomorrow........... I keep fighting the inner urge to undergo the
theories of maturity and puberty ...............
What a puerile and ludicrous individual ...I sure am.